I like to live in a carefree world. A green meadow where I can frolic, fall occasionally, and eat yummy picnic food - watch Grey's Anatomy and think how much THEIR lives suck. But it's quite true. Life does suck and often I hate the responsibilities of being grown up. I think I am so used to the idea of security - that I've always been one of the best and that will continue to be in the future.
And THAT is a lie.
My comfort should not rely on my past, my abilities. It relies on God.
"If the Lord wills, we shall live and do this or that." - James
It's time. I need to start learning to continue to rely on God. I need prayer =)
That being said, Psalm 73:25-26
"Whom have I in heaven but You? And there is none upon earth that I desire besides You. My flesh and my heart fail; But God is the strength of my heart and my portion forever."